My Lovely Little Girl

This is my beautiful little girl.  She is the second of three girls.  This is a photo taken at her primary school graduation a few months ago.  

Sick Child

My daughter is ill and I'm really worried.  I don't want her to know how scared I am because I am afraid that she will become more upset and depressed.  There is some blood clotting in her left eye which caused some blood vessels to burst.  The tissue is healing but there are scars formed during the healing process that affects her eye sight and causes pain in her eye as well as severe headaches.  I feel really helpless in that I have to watch her go through this ordeal and there is very little that I can do.  

I also feel very guilty because she had been complaining about the pain in her eye and headaches for about three weeks and I only took her to see a doctor yesterday.   She constantly complains about aches and pains especially when there are chores to be done and her tendency to be overly dramatic about every little thing makes me take her complaints less seriously than I would my other kids.  I don't know if I can ever forgive myself if she loses her eyesight or worse happens because I was negligent.  

She now has to go through several tests to find out what caused the clotting in the first place.  God help us.  If anyone out there reading this knows anything about blood clots in the eye or burst blood vessels or could offer any advice or support, I would be deeply appreciative.

First Entry

This is something new for me.  Never tried journaling on the net before.  It's kind of weird to be so public with my feelings and opinions about things.  Also I may be exposing some of my art work and I am kind of dreading feedback.  Mostly because my art is such a deep reflection of who I am and any comments that are even remotely negative might feel like rejection.  I guess I am not really good with criticism.  Strangely enough I tend to be my own worst critic.